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Ewww.

This is just gross. I walk into the restroom and I’m one of those people who just naturally look down for feet in the stalls. Does anyone else do that? Anyway, in looking down, I see hemorrhoid cream laying on the FLOOR of the bathroom next to this lady’s feet. Seeing the tube of cream is bad enough, but WTF is she thinking, laying it on the bathroom floor?!??! Hasn’t she been to health class? Hello! Germ city! Would you want something off the bathroom floor near your pink parts?!

/shudder

Yes, yes…I am still alive. Life has been all kinds of crazy since I last wrote. I’ve got some pictures, but no way to upload them, so you’ll just have to wait, I guess.

I’m on my lunch break, so this will be short. Hmm. Should I write a summary of everything, or just start at the beginning?

Let’s see…

Oh hell. I don’t even know where to begin. I’m sitting here trying to eat my Chinese food and I am speechless. Yes, it does happen. Just don’t tell anyone.

My sister and I took my nephews to the zoo while I was in Houston. It was fun, until a bee stung my sister. She is allergic, so we had to get out of there. I had Benadryl in my car, but she wound up having to go to the doctor. But, we did get to see the baby giraffe before the nasty bee intruded on our day – it was just a few days old! Soooo cute!

Feck. I haven’t even started on the important stuff and lunch is over. More later. I just wanted to let everyone know I am still alive and kicking.

Why is it that when I finally think life might be going my way, something has to screw things up?

I have the next two weeks off from work. I intended to spend the time relaxing, but it doesn’t look like it is going to work out that way.

I made plans to go out of town this week, and then find out that one of my best friends is having a birthday party. The party coordinator had typoed my email address when they were sending out the evites, so I didn’t find out about the party before I had other commitments. So, now I am torn. What do I do? Who do I disappoint?

Just as I was making my decision, my phone rings. It is my dad. My cousin Benny died. My dad is really torn up about it. I have a hard time feeling sorry for my cousin, because I feel like he did it to himself. He drank so much every day that his liver failed. My dad is really upset because he practically raised Benny. If it were just me, I wouldn’t be going to the service. It is hard to feel sorry for a man who deserted beautiful twin boys and a little girl who only wanted to see him smile. But, my dad was crying. My dad! My dad is not an emotional man. When I told my dad I would be there for him, he started crying even more and told me how much it meant to him.

Later my dad calls me and wants me to see if I can locate Benny’s half-sister. Being the computer geek, all such chores fall to me. So, here I sit, armed with a first and last name and the last known state she lived in. Hopefully, I have some good points stocked up and I can find her by some miracle, so I don’t let my dad down.

Life’s a bitch and then you die. Isn’t that what they say?
*sigh*

Welp, I’m in DFW now. Wahoo! I feel like this great weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I don’t have Internet access where I am staying, so forgive me in my replies are slow.

I have a job interview this afternoon and another one I need to schedule. Frankly, at this point I feel like saying fuck it all and just taking the job I know I have so I can actually relax for awhile. That sure would be nice.

I got a speeding ticket on the way up here. It friggin pissed me off! I had my cruise control set on 80 and got pulled over. The cop was a jerk. He said I was going 84. He said it is up to him to figure out who is speeding. I said, don’t you think it is more likely the guy in front of me was the one speeding? He said “Just because they are in front of you doesn’t mean they are going faster.” I said “It does if they are passing you!”

Jerk. Pisses me off that it will prolly cost me more to fight it than to just pay the damn thing.

Anyway, I have a lot of email to reply to and then I have to go get ready for this blasted interview.

Try not to miss me tooooooo much

This is a thank you to a friend. Normally, such things are personal, but this time, if I could afford to, I would take out an ad in the NY Times.

Of all that has happened to me here, meeting you was the best part. After only knowing me a few days, you recognized my sadness and sought to help. The words “Sometimes, when asked nicely” will never have the same meaning to me again. *does the gag me/gross out dance* I can never thank you enough for rescuing me from the madness and doctoring my bruised ribs and fractured soul. I didn’t know how I could pick myself up and move on after her rage battered against me. Those next few days, you took care of me with such tenderness that I could never repay you. I saw the anger and knew you wanted to revenge me, and yet you stilled your thoughts because I asked it of you. I will probably never realize how hard it was for you to be around her after cleaning up the mess she made of me that day. Yet I do know it was difficult, and I acknowledge the debt I owe you. Felix will still guard my dreams.

Regardless of where I am in my life, I will travel to New York to see your first billboard in Time Square. I almost feel like I should mark in on my calendar; that is how sure I am that you will accomplish your dreams.

Pay attention to Harvey. Do you see the clues in bunny suits, waving madly? Q-tips are your friend, and so am I. I will miss you. You’d best come visit me in Dallas. Life may take you away from Texas, but you will always have a home in my heart.

So, Jack, with all that said there is only one thing left – Thank you.

Filterfactor
1.Describe the perfect hamburger.

Chili cheese burger, with mustard and jalapenos.

2. Name one thing that you would like to do- but can’t find the nerve to.

Mostly, I do it. I’m one of those people who doesn’t ease into a cold pool. I just jump in, “cold turkey.” But, lately, with my grandma having been sick, I’ve been wishing I had a better relationship with her.

3. Do you have any personal heroes?

I kinda answered this one somwhere else, so forgive the cut and paste: My little sister. We had a rough life, but she has two adorable little boys that she treats like gods. She loves her husband and is making a difference in the lives of those around her. I admire her because the experts say that abuse is a cycle. She said ‘No way’ and it stopped with her.

4. What do you consider your biggest accomplishment?

I’m still alive and doing alright. For the longest time, I didn’t think I’d live to see 18. Most people who grew up in my neck of the woods are in jail or dead.

5. A) What would you do-hoo-oo for a Klondike bar?

I don’t like them, so not much :p

B) How may licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Roll Pop?

One. Two-hoo! Three. *crunch* Three. No, seriously…247. What can I say, I’m one of those people who wants to know. A few of my friends and I sat down and counted one time. We averaged all our individual lick results together and came up with 247.

Kemidra
1) A lot of women would think, from looking at you, that you have it all. Looks, brains, independence. How do you feel about that kind of attitude?

What? They would?
Don’t laugh at me, but I will quote a Britney Spears song:

“Isn’t she lucky, this Hollywood girl?
She is so lucky, but why does she cry?
If there’s nothing missing in her life
Why do tears come at night?

She’s so lucky, she’s a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking
If there’s nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night”

I used to think that this one girl I knew had the perfect life. Until we got drunk one night, and I found out about all the things she hid. I sincerely think I fall somewhere in the middle of the pack, appearance-wise. I know I’m not scary, but neither am I remarkable. I know, I know…confidence is sexy. Dress me up, give me some alcohol and I am confident As for brains…I can hold my own, but I am frustrated that I am more a ‘jack of all trades’ type than a specialist. I guess that is just incentive to go back to school.

2) Would you ever go back in your life and change any one thing? If so, what would it be?

I’ve been through some shit, but all in all, I am proud of the person I am today. Of course, there are things I’d like to work on. Some of the lessons, I wish I could have learned in other ways, but I wouldn’t change the bad, because I might not be the same person I am today if I changed the past. Growing up and looking back, I think there are a few situations in my past that I could have handled someone’s feelings a bit more delicately, but nothing I feel so guilty about that I would risk going back and changing.

3) Who in your life would you say stands out for a special “tribute?” Who’s had the most positive influence and why?

No one person, no. But I had some really awesome teachers throughout school. My calculus teacher my senior year of HS who was awesome but known to be a stickler for the rules – if she said due by 8a, she wouldn’t take a paper at 8:01a. Because of some drama at home, I missed a major project. I was supposed to be in the top of my class, but missing this project would give me an F in her class. She noticed and took me aside later and talked to me. I told her what I could and she gave me more time to turn it in, but the best I could get was an 80 on the project. She was hard, but fair. I wound up with an A in the class and didn’t mess up my ranking. Other things weren’t quite as drastic, just buying me lunch, an extra pat on the back when I was down…little things that make a big difference in the life of a lonely little girl.

4) When you look in the mirror, do you most often see the beauty or the flaws?

The flaws.

5) What about your life do you love the most?

A month or so ago, not too much. Right now, even rain couldn’t spoil my parade! Mostly, I love the fact that I have friends I didn’t talk to for way too long, called out of the blue and they still answered the phone. Sometimes I forget that I do have people who will be there for me.

Maskedfencer
1. Are you going to let Corbin get his groove on with the ladies or not? It could be a whole side business. Jaxia: Dog Pimp.

I’m still undecided. In the last day or two, I’ve come to the realization that I might not be able to keep him. I’ve been trying to get him to adjust to the living conditions he would have to endure once I moved, and he is just not doing very well. He is still way too much a puppy and high engry. With everything, this is the real damper. I was hoping he could stay at a friend’s mom’s place for awhile, until I had a place I could keep him, but they have too many dogs already. /sad

2. If you ran into me on the street, would you run screaming in the other direction? :p

No. I’d apologize for not looking where I was going!

3. City girl or Country?

Ack! I have to pick? Hmm. I’m a city gal who needs occasional country retreats. After doing the horse farm thing for awhile, I realized that living in the country is a lot more romantic than it sounds.

4. Favorite drink, and how do you make it?

Alcoholic: Malibu Rainbow – Malibu rum, pineapple juice, cranberry juice, orange juice, (sometimes grape juice) and a cherry. I don’t usually order them at bars because I get tired of telling people how to make them.
Non: Banana Malts – French Vanilla ice cream, a bit of milk, a little sugar, vanilla extract, a banana and A LOT of malted.

5. What is the weirdest thing you’ve ever worn in public?

Hmm. Lemme think. Weirdest? I don’t think I’ve ever worn anything that I’d call weird. Outrageous, maybe. But not weird :p

earmgr:
1 - If you could wear one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?

Nothing. I hate wearing clothes. If I had to pick (and weather permitted), something like these (you know, loose flowy beach pants) and a tank top.

2 - You can be any ocean creature in the world. What would you be and why?

Neptune, a mermaid, a siren? Naa I would be a starfish. I’ve always admired their ability to recover from loss and keep going on.

3 - You are in medieval times. What role would you be in, and why do you think you would be in that role?

I would be a knight. I want to save damsels in distress. If I were female, I’d be outcast, because I am way too outspoken to deal with the way they treated women back then.

4 - What is your one geeky/hidden pleasure (ie - listening to polka music)?

I still sing Tiffany’s “I think we’re alone now” and Whitney’s “Where Do Broken Hearts Go” in the shower, and have a little routine I do to it and everything.

5 - As a kid what was the silliest thing you did in school (grade school/middle school)?

I got sent to the principal’s office. This boy who was digging on me saw me walking home with this girl from our class. She and I were holding hands and singing “There’s a bluebird on my shoulder…” I was in kindergarten.

1. (May be TMI, but if it is, answer alternate - I’ll ask before philez does)
Have you ever been with a man, and are we really that different than women in the sack?
Alt: How many pairs of shoes do you own; and can you name all the styles of said shoes?

No, I haven’t. Sorry, that answer is kinda boring. I messed around with em when I was in HS, but realized they just didn’t do anything for me, so I never went any farther. It’s not really about the skill - I am sure there are guys who can really physically please a woman in bed. For me, it is not about that. A woman’s smile is magic, and, really – name a taste in this world better than that of a woman.

Alt: I have over 40 pair of shoes. I have all kinds…flip flops, sandals, tennis shoes, Docs, strappy heels, cowboy boots, clunky heeled dress boots…You name a style, I probably have it.

2. Pancakes or waffles?

Waffles, with peanut butter and syrup. Or, pancakes with chocolate chips and/or bananas and syrup

3. What do you see in your minds eye when you smell the warm scent of a perfume you associate with love/lust?

As we’ve discussed on the Nest – I am all about scent. A smell evokes very vivid pictures in my mind. I have a hard time dating a woman who wears a popular perfume, because walking down the street…If the wind carries her scent to me, I can picture her…back arched, body flushed, hair splayed out and that look of intense satisfaction across her face…and I melt.

4. Why did you choose this particular career path in your life?

It picked me. From the time I was in 8th grade, I wanted to be an orthopedic surgeon. At the very least, I wanted to be in sports medicine. I needed a job, Microsoft hired me and I turned out to be a good geek. I have the rare combination of people and technical skills that enables me to be successful.

5. When you get Corbin neutered, will you be buying him fake testicular implants so he doesn’t realize anything’s missing?

Lately, I’ve been thinking about not getting him fixed. Because he is solid white, I have had a lot of people want to use him for stud. But, no, if I get him fixed, I won’t get him implants – balls are overrated

1. When does your new job start?

I changed the day. My last day at my current job is this Friday. I changed the start day for my other job to August 23rd. This gives me a chance to get moved, finish up some other interviews, visit friends and relax a bit. I am still hoping another offer comes through, but if not I will be happy with the job offer I accepted.

2. Are you looking for a serious relationship after this last one, or are you really just looking to have self time punctuated by some casual company from time to time?

Good question. Honestly, I’m not really *looking* for anything. To put it simply, my last relationship was hell and I could really use some time to regroup. It’s been almost a year, but she is still basically a daily part of my life until I move, and so it doesn’t really feel like it has been that long. That said, if Ms. Perfect-for-me knocks on my door, I’m sure not going to slam the door in her face! I know I talk a lot of smack, but I am really no good at the ‘casual company’ thing. Call me corny, but it is hard for me to be with someone if I cannot at least see a future with her.

3. Favourite type of game. And favourite game of that genre. I’m so burnt out on what I’ve got laying around here.

My all time favorite is probably Tetris. Don’t laugh ;p If you get together with friends, pick up Cranium – that game really kicks ass. I haven’t really had the time lately to commit to long games. I play Risk (downloaded, play against the PC), Free cell and Mah Jong to give my brain something to do. I played TTO for a bit with Ana, but had to cancel because I didn’t have the time. Before that, DaoC was the last thing I played.

4. Do you ever plan on having children?

When I was younger, I was told I couldn’t have children, and so I convinced myself that I didn’t want them. Since then, several doctors have told me the first doctor was a quack, and I can. So, I had to do a lot of soul searching. Yes, I do want children. I think I want to have a kid with my genes running around, but I wouldn’t feel like a failure if I never made a little Amy. I’d be fine with adopting or if my gf had a kid.

5. Come on, you really want to give Philez a chance, don’t ya? *grin* (Not with children, just fulfill his hopes and dreams.:)

Eh, I’ve had a few intelligent, gorgeous, and wealthy men offer me everything I could dream of if I would be with them. I don’t hate men, I just can’t see myself ever falling in love with one. Poor Phil.

When I was in HS, I dated a few guys. We’d be making out, and I’d tell myself “If he can just turn me on, then I’ll have sex with him.” It never happened. I’m really not wired that way. I really don’t have any curiosities about what it would be like to be with a man. After the first woman I was with stomped all over my heart, I dated a really great guy in college for a week or two. I didn’t come out to him until much later, and I’m afraid at the time I really hurt and confused him. He had so many awesome qualities, but *something* was missing.

1. How did you come up with the name Jax or Jaxia?

I played MMORPG’s and got tired of seeing the same names everywhere (based on LoTR and such). I wanted something with rare letters – p, q, x, j, z…So I just played around and came up with Jaxia. I liked the way it sounded. Some guy thought it meant something in Chinese and thought I was cool, but I told him I had no idea what he was talking about…

2. Name one fruit in which you just gotta have

I’m a sucker for fresh, firm GA peaches (no squishy ones). Slice ‘em up and sprinkle a little salt on them – heaven on a plate! Green apples are a VERY close second.

3. What sort of wardrobe style would you say you have?

None. I don’t have just one style. I have leather pants, skimpy dresses, baggy jeans, ball caps, tank tops, kicker jeans, Catholic school girl skirts, cargo pants, Dickie’s overalls, and boring T-shirts. It just depends on what mood I’m in when I get dressed.

4. Do you have a cell phone - if so, what is the ring tone you have programmed on it?

I have custom ring tones for friends I talk to a lot. Those tones fit the people – Trick Pony “Just What I Do”, Moulin Rouge “Lady Marmalade”, Eminem “Real Slim Shady” Rage Against the Machine “Killing in the Name of”. My general ring tone right now is Big and Rich “Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy” I change it all the time.

5. Coffee, Tea or… flick-a-my-bic?

All of the above? Coffee in the morning, with lots of cream and sugar. I like French Vanilla Cappuccino at night, cuddled up with a book in front of the fireplace. Sweet tea with my meals. And Dr Pepper is the best carbonated beverage of all time.

Sorry for the delay, I was out of town this weekend. More on that later…

In the mean time…

1. How do you handle being hit on by men? What do you say or do in response?

It depends on how they hit on me (meaning are they tacky and gross, or sweet and sincere). If they fall into the first category, I prolly handle it like any woman would, and I knee them in the groin! If they are sweet and sincere, then I’ll usually tell them No thanks. If they have a nice enough smile, and are gracious about the no, I will still dance with them. Could be just because I am a dance whore It’s easier to dance with guys because me being 5’8”, it is hard to find a woman tall enough to spin me. I will rarely tell a guy *why* I am telling him no – In my experience, they tend to just want sex tips from a lesbian when they find out.

2. What’s your favorite version of the Arthurian Legend?

I doubt this is a shocker: The Mists of Avalon by Marion Zimmer Bradley. I like the different spin she put on things, the way she made me reevaluate the story. It was interesting to learn about motives, and to see things through the eyes of the women. I first read it when I was 10. It is one of those books that I reread at least once a year, if not more often.

3. How did you learn your favorite dance?

A good memory – standing on my dad’s toes when I was 7 years old, 2 stepping in the living room. An ex taught me how to double two, and a guy friend taught me how to shadow waltz. Pretty much, if I see someone who dances well, I will walk up to them and ask them to teach me. That’s how I learned most if it. I’m fairly good at sweet talking

4. Favorite quote from Princess Bride? (This should be hard as there’s about a jillion of them. :p )

Oh damn. That is a challenge. If I really only get to pick one, it’s prolly this one:

Wesley: Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who says differently is selling something.

It’s not the one I quote most often, but it is the one that means the most to me.

5. Your most risque item of leather apparel?

*raised eyebrows* Uhm. I have two leather harnesses. One that looks kinda like this one

And another one that goes on a different part of my body that you’ll just have to use your imagination for :p