At the time, I didn’t really think of it as a miracle. But looking back on it today, I realize that’s what it was – a miracle.
Miracle - an extremely outstanding or unusual event, thing, or accomplishment
The circumstances in and of themselves were probably not miraculous – in my life, yes, but not in general. The miracle was cloaked in words. She asked me, “What are you thinking.” And I said:
I realized something - Right now, in this moment, I am as happy as I can possibly be.
Isn’t that miraculous?! Before you question the validity of my miracle – answer this question: How many times has that thought crossed your mind? And beyond that, how many of those times did you actually roll over, expose your soft belly-side and admit it out loud?
Not many, I’d be willing to bet.
So I ask again - Isn’t that miraculous?!
Sure, finding out I won large sums of money would be nice. However, I believe people can only comprehend so much happiness. Our minds can only understand so much jubilation. This is why I think we cry when we are happy – At that moment, we’ve fulfilled our capacity for elation and we’ve absorbed all the joy we can possibly contain. We are full and the emotion overflows.
I couldn’t be more delighted even if Ed McMahon himself were to knock on my door.
Alliance of Free Blogs - I found You Know You Wanna while searching for kitty porn. No, that's not a typo.
I am grateful for this post of yours. Because it caught me unawares, I can now look back on my delighted, heart-pounding response to it as evidence that I’m not just deluding myself about finally being at peace.
Those who are not at peace, are never happy about those who are.
Congratulations to you, as well.
Comment by inviolet — December 15, 2004 @ 12:43 pm
*grins* I think some of us guessed this a while ago given the tone of your posts
I think its great though
Now I don’t know a ton about your situation but I’m guessing much of the cause is SK (it is SK right? *hopes he isn’t confused*) and if so I hope she either reads alot of your entries or you tell her how you feel alot
Comment by tarss — December 15, 2004 @ 12:44 pm
Aww, that’s so sweet. Glad to hear it.
Comment by _dahne_ — December 15, 2004 @ 1:00 pm
Thank you for sharing your response with me. I treasure and look forward to your feedback.
And I offer congratulations on your peace
Comment by jaxia — December 15, 2004 @ 3:38 pm
Yes - You got it right
SK is Sex Kitten (not her real name, but it works well 
)
She does read my journal from time to time *and* I tell her. Because of your comment, I asked her if I tell her often enough and she told me that I do.
Thank you for reminding me to make sure the most important person knows about my joy!!
Comment by jaxia — December 15, 2004 @ 3:42 pm
Yw
Hope it didn’t sound to preachy.
Comment by tarss — December 15, 2004 @ 3:59 pm
Nope, not at all - it was a good reminder!
Comment by jaxia — December 15, 2004 @ 4:36 pm
For my first post, it seems safer to rely on the words of others …
Brian Andreas: She said she usually cried at least once each day. Not because she was sad, but because the world was so beautiful & life was so short.
Anne Heaton: I know that you love me and for a moment I love me too.
onions, Fridays, Popsicles … you know …
Comment by alwaysthesun2me — December 15, 2004 @ 5:23 pm
“Those who are not at peace, are never happy about those who are.”
Not true :p
Comment by tarss — December 16, 2004 @ 8:19 am
Thanks Dahne!
How were finals?
Comment by jaxia — December 16, 2004 @ 8:23 am
You don’t typically take the safe route
Yes, I do know. *soft smile*
Comment by jaxia — December 16, 2004 @ 8:26 am
The words of others are just fine. After all, other people seemed to have used up all the best ones already.
Yarha, Only So Many Words to Go Around
Comment by yarha — December 16, 2004 @ 8:50 am
Yet people always seem to find some new way to put them together
Or, they are like you and come up with clever puns!
Comment by jaxia — December 16, 2004 @ 8:56 am